I Love You Mary Mary Babyyy....

I dont smoke weed, but if I did....THIS would be my theme song....lol. This dude whole mixtape is sick btw..."I dont flame Jane, I dont complete my mission...."- Freddie Gibbs.

The Same Old Song...

Strike ME I'm Out...

I think i'm pretty much gonna take myself out the dating game (Not like I was ever really in it anyways). I cant figure the game out, and i'm done trying. I'm not even gonna attempt to talk to a chick seriously unless we see each other face to face on the regular. I aint callin or textin none of these chicks in my phone unless they do it first, or I see them on the regular. I just dont have the time or energy to waste on potentialy unfruitful situations and other peoples problems, I got enough problems on my own, im sorry. Unless we really tight, I aint tryina be your shoulder to lean on.  I am also gonna start listening when my boyz or homegirls tell me a chick is crazy. Best believe ima believe' em.  Anywho... basically what im sayin is...my philosophy is now: "I'll see ya when I see ya". If you hit me up on FB or Twitter fine. But im only takin you seriously in person.

On a side note i'm kinda worried about my boy in Houston. I look at him as my brother, and we both have been through alot of the same stuff when it comes to dealing with the opposite sex. Even once had a girl try to play us against each other. (She shoulda known better). But im worried because he hasnt really made any witness friends in H-town, even the ones I suggested didnt pan out. And now when he goes out, all I see is him hangin with worldly chicks. A guy can only do that for so long without something bad happening. And he's already had that happen before. Guess I'll keep an eye on the situation.

I know how easy it could be for me to start doing the same.

Common- Lovin I Lost

This is one of my favorite songs from Common's The Dreamer, The Believer album that comes out next week. You can listen to the full album on 2DopeBoyz.com, I'm not gonna tell you where to download it at lol. Had I money I could spare though I would definitely buy this album. Its already made my Top 5 for the year. Enjoy.

The Hunt Is Over....For Now.

Welp. I got a job. Supposed to start Monday. I'm happy, relieved, and yet still a little apprehensive. I guess because its something I've never done before. Its not the job I really wanted to call me, and its not even in town,  but I gotta take it unless something else calls before the week is out. I've also learned not to trust in the stability of jobs, so Ima make sure I work it, and not let it work me. Who knows? If its any good and I like it, I may finally quit the night job. Course thats been my gameplan for every job I've had since Markraft let me go lol. Still havent done it yet, at least not completely. Still....I REALLY hope one of these jobs I applied to in town calls me. I seriously doubt i'll have time to go to an interview come next week. A nigga tryina save on some gas lol....

Shock & Awe...

Its funny. Im seeing mad people on Facebook and Twitter post about the WT today that talked about singleness and marriage. Its like this stuff is a brand new thought to them. I dont know, maybe I have unnatural common sense, or I'm just a very keen observer, but it didnt seem like the points brought out were earth shattering revelations. I did however enjoy the many comments from those already married or who had been married before. I mean it was a GREAT Watchtower, but for some peoples reactions, im like come on now, you didnt know you were sposed to ask the person you're dating those important questions? Really? You didnt know that once you're married your mate might eventually get on your nerves? Really? You didnt know that you may have to make sacrifices in your spiritual goals once your married? Really?

I mean, I thought about this type stuff PLENTY of times. But maybe thats just me, and maybe thats why i'm single, I think TOO FAR ahead. I even look at a girls momma, just to see how they might look in the future lol. The main thing personally that I hope certain ones in my congregation got out of todays WT tho, is to refrain from tryin to set us single one's up with someone, or continue to harp on our singleness. That really was a problem pertaining to me that really got my goat so to speak.

At this moment tho, I dont care for #TeamSingle or #TeamMarried im tryina join the #MoneyTeam and get this paper. Hollerate.

Special Shoutout...

Sittin here listening to my fave R&B artist right now The Weeknd and thinking about the usual....females lol. I've come to the conclusion im not gonna change for none of them. I just have to find the one the fits. Some dont get my particular brand of humor, or walk the same path Im tryina walk, and I'm just gonna accept that and keep it movin.

Its funny to me tho when I think on it, the single girls I get along with the best, and accept me for who I am, most times are the ones that have been married, or have kids. Just my opinion but I think its because they have REALLY been with a man, or the kids have made them more mature. Whatever the case may be, they just seem less uptight, less prudish, and less superficial. So with that being said: Shoutout to my Divorcee Baby Momma's! Luv yall. One.

A Secret...For The Girls.

The other day I seen a Twitter follower tweet about "arranged marriages". No one in the States wants that. But you know why "arranged marriages" have worked? I'll let females in on a secret...."FEMALES ALLOW MEN TO GROW ON THEM". This is why alotta bros, in fact, guys in general appear thirsty to some sisters. They KNOW that if they can just get they foot in the door with the finest of the sisters...they gotta chance. Its like winning the lottery or a gold rush. Some find it easier than others to get they foot in the door because of finances.  We have all seen it. (by we, I mean brothers) We have seen some of the baddest (by that i mean FINEST) sisters, go out with the lamest, ugliest, of dudes and marry them. And what do they say later? "I wasnt even attracted to him AT FIRST." You'll never hear a guy say that. If he does, what it really means is, "he was attracted to her physically, but her personality made her wack until she changed it". Trust me,  if we arent attracted to you AT FIRST...unless there is some typa major surgery, WE AINT GONNA LIKE YOU LATER EITHER. I dont care how good your personality is.

Bottom line, guys are visual, women are emotional. And an ugly, no account, no job having, non-spiritual dude can get with a beautiful girl as long as he somehow establishes a favorable emotional attatchment.

All that being said...the saying "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" still rings true to me. I still believe there is someone for everyone on this earth. Its just due to circumstance, or maybe we havent lived long enough that many of us havent met that someone. And I'll leave it at that.

GOOD BROTHERS

I hate when sisters try to act like there are NO GOOD BROTHERS. Maybe I live in an anomally but there are plenty of good brothers where I live. It's the women that be doing dirt. Trust me I have inside sources. Yeah alot of the good brothers where I'm at are younger than me, or are taken. But I could say the same for the sisters. Sisters nowadays are trifilin. Either that or they have too many mental and emotional issues. I could easily cite a some examples. One of which is kinda breakin my heart right now.

An older bro and his 3 kids (all deep in their teens) are goin thru it at my hall, because the wife all of a sudden doesnt want to be witness anymore.  They have to have been the most spiritual fam I knew of at the hall. The brother even helped me get my first study. And now this happens. Apparrently the wife has been thinking about this for a while. She had been pioneering and everything. Now she talking about, she been brainwashed. Some of the bros even think she may have stopped taking her meds or something. Its ridiculous after all these years in the truth, for something like this to occurr. And I just feel sorry for the whole fam. Stuff like this makes you not even want to get married. I saw the daughter at the hall the other night looking like she wanted to cry. Smh. Anyways....

Just this weekend I was at a party a friend of mine threw. The liquor was flowin, the music was good, and I guess that got ppl in the mood to wild out. Anyways, there were several sisters winding and grinding on different bros at the party. Now ima dude, and as a dude, its gonna be hard to turn down a girl who wants to do that type of dancing with you. And im not gonna lie some dudes were initiating it. At the same time tho, I KNOW as a dude, NO DUDE wants a relationship with a girl that winds it and grinds it with half the dudes at a party or club. Especially if they claimin they witnesses. My homeboy who couldnt make the event has been hollerin at one of the girls who was grinding it the most at the party. He told me today that she told him exactly what she had been doing....and he talmbout...."man im just tryin see where her head at...is that how she really gets down?". No dude wants to have to be wondering bout his girl. Im sorry if half the dudes I know already know how your booty feels, I aint tryina talk to you.

And you definitely aint gonna get a "good brother" if everyweek you dating somebody new, or "going out to lunch" with somebody, or always in pics chillin with your "homeboys". No brother in his right mind is gonna approach you (UNLESS he's a player) because he's already gonna think he has competition and that you got a handfull of bros in your "pocket" already. Just a tip.

And now Im bout to post on a seperate topic...sorta.

Got A Feeling...

I dont know why I get the urge to write so late lol. But anyways....Tommorrow or should I say today should be a full one. I plan on heading up to Raleigh to this lil housewarming shindig for a friend of mine. I've been debating it all week. I know Im tipping the scales of brokeness righ now, so I kinda feel like one of them niggas that buy brand new J's instead of making his car payment. In other words I probably should be saving my money/gas, but....I dont know...I just have this feeling that things are lookin up.

While I was bedridden half the week (which is a wholenotha story) I found a plethora of jobs online that suited me and applied to them, and also checked up on some old ones. My temp agency even called me on Tuesday to work Wednesday but alas I was still bedridden and had to turn it down. That being said I have a job interview scheduled next week with one of the jobs I checked back on. To add to that an even closer job I applied to seemed to show interest today by responding with an email that they wanted me to come in and fill out an application. I replied by telling them I came in an applied the same day I sent the resume, and they said they are going to try and track it down. Suffice it to say, Im just being hopefull that soon money will be in my pockets on the reg again...but that hope has put me in a good mood for the weekend. I was becoming numb to the stress anyway and besides...

SHE called me today. And didnt even talk about HIM....matta fact as I was typing this blog...SHE started hitting me up on a social network...lol. Happy Dayz.....for now...lol. Im out.