Lately I've really been reminded about my age. Whether its been through the pains of a regular work day. Or the pains of looking for love.
Im 32 years old working a physically demanding job. While this keeps me from gaining too much weight (like I dont have enough), I feel like im 80 yrs old when I have to do something dealing with getting on my knees. They are completely shot. With all the lifting I do i'm surprised I dont have chronic back pain. Yet. I'm still putting in applications, hoping to find less laborious work with at least health benefits. Which I currently don't have. So I cant even go to the doctor for a check up if anything were actually wrong with me. I have to keep in mind what was said by a speaker at the last District Convention, this life is only temporary. Real talk I pray every morning on the way to work that my day will go smoothly. And trust me it helps.
When it comes to the love life, seems like all im left with are sisters 10yrs younger than me. Of course they not really givin me the time of day, and I dont blame them. Who wants to deal with an old fogie like me? So then I dig and try to find sisters my age and what do I come up with? Here's a summary:... Hoe, Recently Divorced, Going Through A Divorce, 2 Kids, 3 Kids, 1 Grown Kid, Just Got Pregnant By A Worldly Guy, Bi-Polar, Dumb As Mud, Only Known Through Social Networking and Only Thing I Can Converse About Is My Ex.
Mannn that last one...dont even get me started. If its one thing I HATE, its a sister callin me to talk about or ask about, some OTHER dude. Smdh.
But lemme tell ya. At the last convention...I got 2 sisters digits. Both were around my age, single no kids. What do you think happened? Dry uninterested (on her part) text convos with one. The other has not answered my phone calls (only 2 at the 3rd strike she's out) after telling me at the convention that her phone doesnt get text messages at the moment. I just cant win for losing. On the real, my mind is completely baffled as to how so many are able to get into relationships nowadays. And so many also jump in and out. Are they settling? Should I? I dont even know where to start.
This is where I'm at but in the 23 going on 24 year old mind frame. Keep your head up homie, there has to be somebody for us.
ReplyDeleteI hope so. At least you got some cushion (age wise lol). And somehow I missed ya again last time I was in Raleigh. Smh.
ReplyDeleteI hope you do find a less laborious job because you don't want to have to deal with aches and pain with bad knees you still young and you're not an old fogie!! lol smh. Also in the love department I come to realize it will happen when it happens my main focus need to be on spiritual things, and it is. You can't make things happen sometimes you just have to let it happen on its own. I know sometimes it seems like it will never happen but continue focusing on your spiritual goals, do seldom work territory, travel (if you can), because that's what will keep you busy and help you to meet friends that are different from what your use to meeting. Just a thought...I'm at a point in my life where I'm not gonna worry or stress about finding someone anymore its whatever, got to focus on myself doing Jah's will.
ReplyDeleteYou right, its just much easier said than done. As a guy, I feel like I always have to make the first move. After so many disappointments and rejections tho, im bout to hang it up. The next girl probably gonna have to holla at me. Smh.
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